I find my breath catching. Ive watched to many zombie movies to not think thats the next steps. There aren’t enough stories of kindness coming from our world lately. To many fear induced information being thrown at us. I always thought it would be an EMP that would bring the zombies, but it already looks like they’re here.
We went grocery shopping yesterday morning. AFter watching the news, and facebook stories, and the line ups and empty shelves in the cities i wanted to get there early. We have to drive almost an hour to get to a larger centre for groceries. The small town we live outside of has an IGA which has small town prices. You can spend a month worth of grocery money in one trip and come out with three bags.
So we drive to Olds. It was also a major blizzard yesterday. Leaving down our dirt road to head to the secondary highway was a little touchy, its been melting all week so the ice is thick. Once we turned onto the highway there was a truck and trailer flipped in the ditch. My breath caught. We had 40min to go and right off the hop there’s a truck in the ditch. I quickly ran through my list in my head and decided we needed to go.
We filled up because our small town has always had higher gas prices as well, and this case it was a 12cent difference. Crazy. I pep talked the kids, i needed them to listen, we needed to get our list and we needed to leave. I honestly wasn’t sure what we would be walking into.
I am the type of person who shows their emotions on their face. I’m stressed I’m worried but not panicking. Its our first trip where Florence walked with me, was super helpful, wasn’t running off and hiding in the milk cooler. Parker on the other hand screamed bloody murder the entire time. They both felt it.
Its an eerie feeling out there right now. People aren’t friendly, its very much every man for himself and its heartbreaking. The canned food was pretty much gone, toilet paper for whatever reason as well. We got the last package of baby wipes. Which we actually need. Because i have a son in diapers. So i use them to wipe poop not my hands. We also got the last box of diapers. I truly hope who ever bought all of those items needed them, or was donating them.
We would usually go to two stores and get a donut when we go for our shopping, but not yesterday. I honestly just wanted to get home as soon as I could. From what I read about the stores in Olds last night things have been completely emptied.
I honestly don’t think this is the end of days. I am not going that far, don’t worry I am not that crazy, although I do own a life straw. Just in case. But I am concerned. I am concerned that when we talk to our children about this insane time in our world, what do we say? Do we tell them that we were lucky enough to buy 18 packs of toilet paper? Or do we tell them we helped people, we stayed calm, we helped from keeping this virus spreading, and we loved.
I don’t want my kids growing up thinking that their first response to crisis is panic. I want them to grow up thinking, how can I help in this time of need. I want them to have calmness to take a big butterfly breath when they feel overwhelmed and know that they will be ok. I want them to be kind, to be loving, to be helping hands to those that cant. I want them growing up to be defenders, defenders of people, and what they believe in. To have their own opinions and to stand by what they believe in.
I see a nation of people in panic mode. I see a country fearful of what’s to come. I am worried as well. I worry about how people will react to what the government decides. I worry how this will affect my family, and I worry about my husband at work while I am at home with our kids. But I am trying my hardest to not let that show. I am trying to be strong for our family and not panic. I’m not worried about eating. I know how to cook with the absolute basics. I don’t need canned food or frozen packages to do that, they help i know but give me water flour sugar and yeast and Ill make you something tasty. How many people can do that if they don’t have the internet? Do you still have recipes written down? Do you know how to make bread?
Because if this fear and panic are headed towards a world without the normal we have come to be a custom to, do you actually know how to take care of yourself? Just some food for thought.
Everyone needs to take a deep big butterfly breath. We are all in this together. Don’t forget that.
Stay safe.
Much love
Simone
Xoxo
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