Story of heartbreak

On Wednesday August 7th a 14 year old boy named Carson Crimeni died of a drug overdose in Langley, British Columbia. I never met him, I don’t have any connection to his friends or family. But for some reason his death has been heavy on my heart since I first read the Global news article.

Carson was apparently hanging out with his “friends” and I use that term very lightly. They were at the local skate park like you would assume 14 year olds would’ve been on a hot summer day. The only difference was that they were doing Molly, MDMA. The whole ordeal was recorded and sent around through Snapchat and text messages.

Of course I will never know the whole story as will no one else that wasn’t there, but these “Friends” of his had allegedly given him 15 tabs of the drug and filmed his downward spiral. New information is that they took his shoes and phone away from him at some point, while he was to high to function and left him. He was found in a ditch a few hundred yards from his grandparents home. It was only then that 911 was called, and not from the original set of kids he was hanging out with. He died later in hospital.

No one tried to help him. They stood around and laughed as he was incapable of being able to keep him self safe. He had no one that was his friend, no one kept him safe they left him to die.

I am heartbroken for the family that their son died at only 14 for absolutely no reason, except for entertainment purposes it seems. They will now forever have not only his childhood pictures but the burden of various videos of him as his body is shutting down and he is dying.

I am angry. I am angry that we live in a world that this kid, in a good neighbourhood, in a great country, was left to die alone. That he had no one with him to keep him safe and to tell these jerks that enough is enough. I understand very well that when you’re 14 it is incredibly hard to stick up for yourself let alone a friend. i understand that, its hard to be a teenager and I am so thankful I didn’t have to worry about everything I did and said being video’d and sent around to everyone in school. I cant understand how hard it would be now. But does that mean we have also come to the point in this existence that we no longer have advocates? That we no longer will have kids sticking up for each other in fear of repercussions from their peers? I hope I really really hope that the kid that took a picture of himself with the ambulance in the background and the caption “Carson almost dies” while laughing, feels incredible amounts of pain today. I really hope this kid has some sort of feeling over this. Not just fear of being found out. Because his face is very clear and people know him. I hope all these kids that were in these videos actually feel remorse. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want these kids to be charged. If they are also taking the drugs that Carson did, then they know how much is to much. They are very well aware of what can happen.

I am angry at the amount of people that are not blaming these kids and are putting blame on their parents, their schools, their lack of education. STOP. Stop taking the blame away from all these kids, stop making them be accountable for things they have done. Stop giving trophies to each and everyone of them because they almost made it. This is what has happened to this upcoming generation. None of them have had to take responsibility for anything they do wrong! So yes, there is blame to lay on society and parents and schools. But you know what? There are some things that can’t be taught, some things are learned, some things are in your DNA.

I am terrified for our kids. If this is the way things are headed what will it be like for them at 14? I’d like to think small town country life will shelter them from these horrible things, but I know that’s a lie. If kids want to try something, they figure out a way, doesn’t matter where they live.

I hope that his family will find peace, that there will be someone to talk to. I hope the kids involved will be able to talk as well, that everyone involved will have an advocate for them, even though they weren’t one for Carson. I want that because if we just charge them and send them off to jail without trying to help them emotionally have we left them just like they did? Without help nothing will change.

I hope above everything else that this will never happen again. That we all have someone that will be beside us through everything, that our children will never be left alone. That they are never in an unsafe situation alone and we are never left wondering why.

Hug those you love today.

Spread some love.

Xoxo

Simone

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