For the past few months I have had nothing but ideas to write about. I run through them in my head and never put them on paper. When I started writing again I sat down every morning and wrote, no matter what it was I just sat down and wrote. It wasn’t all quality work but it was something getting out.
When the beginning of fall started like everyone, it became exceptionally busy. Florey in Playschool for the first time, I was trying to get a small business going and therefore working solely on creating for that. Sleep times were changing yet again, as they seem to do with the seasons. My hour of solitude in the mornings was replaced by early risers and demands for food.
Things changed and as they usually do I put myself on the back burner. I think thats pretty normal for a mom. We just get so wrapped up in trying to take care of everything and everyone we love that we forget. We forget to take care of ourselves, not just going to get our hair cut (I haven’t had one since 2018) or shopping for new pants (also 2018). We forget to take those 15mins to drink a coffee or a tea. To sit and do absolutely nothing.
I see a lot of talk about self care on social media by “influencers” who are usually pushing some sort of quarterly subscription box full of “self care”. A scarf, some make up and a bag Ill never use, doesn’t qualify in my mind as taking care of myself. It’s just more money spent on trying to keep up. To me it feels like we’ve turned self care into buying. Buying things we don’t actually need and things that wont actually make us feel better. It’s one more thing to try and have. It’s a want not a need. And our needs are taking a back burner to what we really need. Which is quiet.
We need more mornings or quiet. Or if night is your thing nights. We need more time away, not physically away, we need more time away from the onslaught of ads, tv, streaming, phones, computers, iPads. Every time I open any device there’s an ad trying to get me to buy something, and man its hard not to want. We want what others have, thats how these influencers have become a big deal. I mean the term influencer kinda tells you exactly what they do right?
I guess when the new year starts we all start to try and get back to what we feel we need. I’m seeing lots of people with daily journals again, I hope you stick with it. My facebook is one ad after another of exercise apps and programs, ya thanks facebook i get it. Apparently only 8% of people who start going to the gym in January stick it out. 8%. Thats a terrible number. What do you think happens with the rest? Ive done the January gym thing, one year I even had a personal trainer. I made it 6 months. Then other things were just more fun.
I haven’t written a lot because I also had so much to say that I wasn’t sure about sharing. Experiences with my daughters school, personal health, family health, loss, love, pain. You know the usual. I wont make a resolution, but I am going to be writing more. I am also going to be sharing more because I have let myself feel that I cant say things because people are reading. So what’s the point then right?
So get ready. This is the year I don’t hold back. I know those that know me are thinking, oh great shes already an oversharer. Don’t worry I wont use your names ha!
So cheers to the new year, and to whatever you have decided to accomplish this year. Good luck you can make it through no mater what comes your way.
Much love
Xoxo
Simone
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